Addictive Personality

I think I have one.

There was a time about a year ago, that I started going to the gym 6 days a week. I pretty much changed one addiction for another one. I mean it was great-I lost 16 inches in 6 weeks. And I did feel better. But is it healthy to substitute one addiction for another? I'm not going to pretend to know the answer to that. And I'm not going to pretend to know the answer to why I do that. If I think about it, it makes my head hurt. And it kind of makes me sad.

I think eventually, I'm going to have to get to the root of that problem. For now, I suppose exercising instead of overeating isn't THAT terrible.

When I think about that period, the one thing that sticks out to me is why I stopped. I gave up because I didn't lose a single pound. Yes, I lost inches. But not even ONE pound. It was demotivating not to see the scale move. People said I was trading fat for muscle, which in the grand scheme of things, is great. However, when you weigh over 200 lbs how is it possible that you don't loose a single pound? It honestly doesn't make sense to me. I wish I had an expert to answer that question for me.

I told myself I was going to start exercising today. I'm not. But I'm not going to call it a failure. Because making little changes is going to help me reach my long term goal. Today I've had lots of fruit and yogurt. And at lunch I'm going to have a nice big salad. I've started to change my eating habits. How can I call that anything but a success?